I’m all settled in at the computer with a mug of coffee, and since I just fed the cats and dog, I should have a few moments of peace in which to write. Praise Purina!
Danny is still asleep upstairs, and is still not quite up to snuff after his bout of stomach “flu.” I have oatmeal ready for him in the fridge, so when he comes down he can heat it up and have some brown sugar and milk on it. With luck, he’ll be able to stomach supper tonight, but if not, I’ll fix him some tea and toast.
I have a jump on supper, in fact. Just made a batch of polenta, and poured it into an oiled pie plate to cool. Later this afternoon I plan to cook up some chunky tomato sauce, using some canned tomatoes. (I got *such* a deal on them a while back, and have at least 30 cans sitting in there to use.) I have onions on hand, garlic, good olive oil, plenty of herbs and some peppers, and some red wine. Tonight, I’ll slice the cooled polenta, brush it with olive oil and grill it on both sides (dusted with either black pepper or cayenne) and then top it with the thick sauce and some grated cheese. I thought about adding some chicken andouille sausages, diced, to the sauce, but I’m really just in the mood for a meatless sauce tonight.
I’ve been re-reading all of my “frugal” books of late. The Tightwad Gazette books, Miserly Moms, etc.. Since I’ve opted to leave my job and we’re down to one income again, I want to enjoy returning to a more frugal mindset. And as odd as it may sound to a lot of folk, I really do enjoy this. I feel more grounded, somehow. Granted, the fact that my van finally gave up the ghost and that I decided not to replace it is *not* one of the more pleasant steps I’ll be taking to economize; tomorrow, for example, I’ll need to get up early and drive Jeff in to work in order to have the car so I can go get my bloodwork done. Then I’ll need to make a trip back into town to get him after work. I’m not wild about this. But, for the most part I don’t mind at all that I’m not as mobile as I was. I’m one of those odd ducks who can be very happy spending most of my time at home.
At the moment, I’m working on 12″ afghan squares for a swap I’m in over at Crochetville. I have one due to be mailed out *any time now* (damn thing just won’t turn out the way I want it to!) I may give up on it and do a different square right quick, then send out both of them and let the recipient decide if she likes either of them. I also have some stunning yarns that I received yesterday from a dear new friend in CA (hi Mare!) and I’m giving much thought to how I want to use those. They’re so lovely, I don’t want to waste them on some half-assed project, and I’m not sure my skills are quite good enough to justify these beautiful yarns. (I only picked up crochet last January, after having been taught the basics when I was a child by my grandma.) There’s a nubbly, cream-coloured yarn shot through with sparkling gold, and I’d love to make a shawl with that. And some jewel-toned recycled sari silk that begs to be made into a bag.
Hmmm. Maybe I need to bear my own advice in mind. Just today, I posted the following in response to one crocheter’s dismay over an unfinished afghan of her grandmother’s that this woman had inherited :
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One thing that may help is to remember that not all the squares have to be uniform. Some of the inherent charm of old quilts or other pieced work, including older crocheted work, is that things just aren’t perfect. The crafters back then were often working with whatever scraps of yarn or fabric they could lay their hands on, and often squares would end up in differing sizes, or in combinations of colours that we wouldn’t normally think “should” go together. But these wonderful pieces *work.* They’re delightful. And even if you can’t make your grandma’s afghan squares all uniform in size, or they have other quirks that a piece made nowadays might not have, the finished project will almost certainly be lovely in it’s own way nonetheless.
Have you ever heard of the Japanese concept of wabi sabi? I love this! I’ll quote from a website here — “Wabi-sabi is a beauty of things imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete. It is the beauty of things modest and humble. It is the beauty of things unconventional.” Wabi sabi is what makes those old quilts or afghan sing with beauty despite their flaws. It’s what makes a cracked pottery vase a poem. It’s what makes an overweight momma in her late 40’s look radiant to her husband and son.
(thank heavens!)
I think it’s what your grandma’s afghan will have when you’ve completed it. It has it even now, in pieces in the bag. Even if you never finished it, you could find joy in holding a square of that afghan in your hand, thinking of your grandma and looking at the work of her hands.
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I have so much trouble allowing my own work the freedom to be “imperfect” and yet embrace the beauty of imperfection in other people’s work. What a ridiculous double standard — and to be honest, it smacks of conceit on my part! I need to cut this shit out, eh?
I’ll close for now. I want to get some dishes done, some laundry started, and settle in with some stitching. I’ll pop a Chris Isaak cd into the player, and I’m sure that I’ll end up with at least one cat curled up on my feet before I get the first round of crochet finished. If only I could train them to fix me a mug of tea and bring me a small plate of cookies along with it, they’d almost be worth their (considerable) weight around here. Warm feet and the relaxing sound of purring is all very well and good, but having little furry waiters would be even better.